Hear Me

No matter how much I cry

No matter my pain

Not matter how much I feel inside

My pain is for no gain

My cries go silent

In the ears of him

That can hear everyone and everything

And all the cries that I've cried out

He heeds no more it seems

Why I wonder

When you could heal the sick

And bring back the dead

Why can't  you take away our pain

And give us a child instead

Why can't you heal my broken heart

And place a child in my arms

So that the love between husband and wife

Can at last be whole

Why do the tests always come back negative

When all my friends  get positive

Will I ever feel what it's like to hold a child

To hear them whisper Mommy

And then see them grow up

And become what I couldn't

Or will it only be in my dreams

Forever a scar upon my heart.

I'm driving my husband crazy

And all my friends as well

They are sick of hearing about my pain

Of not being able to bear a child

Why oh Lord, can't you give us one little one

To heal our broken souls

What lesson is there 

In this pain

that you are trying to unfold. 

I don't understand

I can't comprehend 

Why we can't seem to conceive

We are doing everything right

And doing everything we can

And everyday I am surrounded

By people who don't care

About their precious child

They try to get out 

They to to run

Away from their daughters and sons

While in the meantime

My darling husband

Would  do anything

To hear a child call him Papa

Please Heavenly Father

Send us a child

Please let the test come back positive 

Please cure my aching soul

Please let me live 

To see the joy on my husbands face

When I tell him we are expecting

And that we will have a child

Please let me experience

The joy and sorrow of Motherhood

Let me experience the sleepless nights

And all the restless hours
That one child can bring

Let me hear my name 

Replaced by the name Mommy

Let me hear them cry out for me

When they are scared and frightened.

Please oh Heavenly Father

I pray this hopeless day

That you will bless us with all this

And take away our pain

I pray that you will hear

My simple earnest plea

And give your loving daughter and son

A healing feeling of peace

Please help me Father

I simply ask

To understand your ways

And while I walk this path

Give me strength along the way

Please help me find

The peace my soul needs

And the love my heart needs to feel.

And finally I ask for just one more simple thing
The gift of your daughter...
To become...
Our little Madeline...